Rant du jour

Okay, soooo...

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 21:04:36 GMT

I'm much with the lameness these days. I don't really feel like maintaining a journal for anything RL and especially not anything political/social right now. I baleeted tehbetsusernaem because practically all I did with it was whine.

Anyway.

I'll add all you guys to blogosaurus - not because I expect you to care about my dinosaur babble but just for the purposes of keeping up with you. :) Because I do intend to start updating that once again. I might make a journal just for fiction-posting, too. Fandom stuff, I'm not really sure - it might go here or on JF or possibly both, we shall see.

Even though I don't intend to update this journal much, at least for the time being, I'm not going to baleete because it has ~~my raptor manifesto of greatness~~ some stuff that some people might actually find interesting/fun/useful.

Sorry about all this, guys.

Mon, 06 Aug 2007 19:12:06 GMT

Is anyone else following the Strikethrough 2.0 saga, including the burr86 incident?

I gotta say, I'm pretty torn. On one hand, burr86's comment was funny, and I highly doubt he was being entirely serious. On the other hand, if I ever mocked a customer where the customer could see or hear me, even if what I said was funny and not entirely serious, I'd get bitchslapped by management so fast and hard my head would not just spin, but go flying clean off my shoulders.

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 03:23:36 GMT

Your Score: GRYFFINDOR!

You scored 20% Slytherin, 36% Ravenclaw, 48% Gryffindor, and 28% Hufflepuff!

You might belong in Gryffindor,
Where dwell the brave at heart,
Their daring, nerve, and chivalry
Set Gryffindors apart.

Gryffindors are known for their courage, audacity, and devotion to what is good and honest.

Link: The Sorting Hat Test written by leeannslytherin on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

New journal... sort of.

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 01:17:12 GMT

tehbetsusernaem is going to be my new journal for personal life stuff. There's not much there yet, but there's going to be when I stop being lazy.

From this point on out, this journal will be just for fandom. So if you don't particularly care about fandom, you should probably unfriend this journal and add tehbetsusernaem. (Likewise, if you're just here for fandom and don't care about my RL, you don't need to do anything.)

I'll add anyone back who adds me. :)

Deathly Hallows thoughts & journal-related questions.

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 17:08:22 GMT

Okay, first I wanted to get my big wanky...wanking out of the way: OMFG FRED OMFG WHY. T_________________T I have been posting this everywhere I could post it. One twin dying and not the other was always my secret fear. :( I do think Fred's death worked with the story and everything, though, so I'm not going to go off on some bitchtastic rant about how JKR sucks or anything. (Well, I mean, it's her story, even if I didn't like it, it'd be pretty damn wanky and entitled of me to actually get that pissed off. But you guys know what I mean, right? I do think it was written well, and it fit, and yeah. It was just also very sad. Fred. T_T)

Other deaths that made sad: Dobby, Hedwig. T_T Whyyyyyyyy?! I always liked Dobby, honestly! I know some people thought he was annoying, but meh. I found him cute. "HERE LIES A FREE ELF." ;~;

And Hedwig... ;_; That was the first death to really choke me up. I always get like that about animals. Poor bird. *sniff*

Remus's and Tonks's deaths didn't really get to me the same way. Neither did Moody's, even though I always kinda liked him. I actually CHEERED when Bellatrix died, even though I liked her too, because HOLY SHIT MOLLY YOU BADASS AWESOME THING YOU. FUCK YES. I wanted soooo badly to believe that spoiler when I first read it, and having it confirmed was just like...FUCK YES! Plus, Bellatrix killed Dobby, Sirius and (I think) Fred, she had it coming. GO MOLLY! *waves Molly flags*

I kind of wanted Neville to kill Bellatrix, but hey! He got to use Gryffindor's sword to kill Nagini! WHICH WAS AWESOME BTW. NEVILLE WAS SO FREAKING AWESOME IN THIS BOOK. You seriously do not fuck with Neville. He was kicking ass and taking names. YAY NEVILLE!

AND RON. ♥ OMFG RON. I loved the part where he destroyed Riddle!Harry and Riddle!Hermione with the bigass sword. :D It was just so COOL. Also... the Ron/Hermione bits were just freaking adorable. :D I loved them! Everything was so sweet and so them and just so perfect. Their kiss was great!

GINNY WAS BADASS HOSHIT. I wish we'd seen more of her, but what we did see was awesome, so I'm not complaining. And the Harry/Ginny bits were just... so cute. I really liked them. And I loved how tenderly Harry thought of Ginny. It was like, "D'awwww. So cute. ♥" Their kiss at the Burrow was so bittersweet, and Ron's reaction was understandable.

XENOPHILIUS LOVEGOOD BEST NAME EVER. I am naming my kid Xenophilius if I ever have a kid. I swear to God.

Luna was soooooo cute. :D I mean, she always is, but... eee, yay. I just wish the epilogue had said something about what happened to her! But oh well, I can always make it up in my head.

Harry, Hermione and Ron rob a bank. How awesome is that? Pretty awesome, I'd say.

Aww, Narcissa. :) I'm not a big Malfoy family fangirl, but I do think the affection they have for each other - especially Narcissa to Draco - is pretty cute. I think between Molly and Narcissa and Xenophilius all the parental love in this book was just really, really freaking adorable. :)

PERCY TURNED GOOD AGAIN. :D :D :D YAY PERCY! I'm so glad he came back. *hugs Percy*

I liked the Snape/Lily! And I'd always hated Snape/Lily before! But it was handled really well, for the most part. Snape asking Harry to look at him once more with his mother's eyes was kinda creepy, but hey, it's Snape, I can live with creepy.

I liked the epilogue. I'm kind of bewildered that Harry named a kid Albus Severus, but in my imagination/personal canon, the first kid is named James Sirius. It is kind of creepy how all Harry's kids are named after dead people. Actually, while I can understand people's objections to Albus Severus - although I don't mind it as much as some people - I'm honestly surprise there's wank over Rose, Hugo and Scorpius, which all seem to be fairly normal Wizarding names to me. :/ "Rose" fits with the flower name theme, anyway. And "Scorpius" fits in with the "thinking it's somehow even remotely okay to call a child Mundungus, Nymphadora or Aberforth" theme.

ASS is the best ship name ever! Too bad I'm already more of a Rose Weasley/Scorpius Malfoy fan.

I bet Neville is the best Hogwarts Herbology professor ever! I bet he is nice, yet ABLE TO KICK ASS when the fuckers step out of line. I wish the epilogue had told us who the new head was or what the Trio does for a living, but then again I don't, because it means we're free to imagine it. (I imagine Hermione having some big fancy important job and Ron as a stay-at-home dad.)

The Dursleys aren't completely two-dimensional after all! Well, okay, Vernon is, but Petnia and Dudley aren't! Especially not Dudley. He was actually cute in this book. Yay Dudley! He's like Kreacher for me, actually - a character I used to hate that I now I kind of like. Actually, Kreacher > Dudley, but still.

I loved the Dumbledore backstory! It's awesome to see Dumbledore as something other than this perfect saintly figure. And I'm with everyone who says Dumbledore/~~Magic Hitler~~ Grindlewald OTP. Jo might as well have put [SLASHY SUBTEXT] shit about Dumbles and Magic Hitler [/SLASHY SUBTEXT] right there in the book.

The Battle of Hogwarts? I cannot WAIT to see that in movie form. I am absolutely certain it will be AMAZINGLY TERRIFIC and TOTALLY DESERVING OF MY SUPER-RANDOM CAPS. Seriously, I was all, "OMFG" throughout the whole battle. :D It was awesome and exciting and just totally yayness and omfg McGonagall siccing desks on people?! Cool!

Um, yeah, I know this is kind of incoherent and jumps around a lot and there's stuff I missed I'm sure, and I'll have to go back and talk about it more later maybe. But I am happy with this book - it's my second favorite after PS, I think, and a fitting end to the series.

I've decided I'm going to have separate accounts for my fandom stuff and my RL updates/random political or philosophical babble. There's a fair amount of reasons for this - some of the people on my flist now either aren't in fandom or aren't in MY fandoms, RL people have been asking to see my LJ but I don't want to show them the fandom parts, my weird quasi-OCD issues just want them separate, etc. Now, since I can't make any decisions ever at all without input from the Internet, I have questions for you, oh great and terrible flist.

(It was going to be a poll, but I'm too lazy to switch to a Plus account just this second. I may still ask the same question in poll form later.)

Should I:

keep good_odds as a personal journal and make a new journal for fandom-related stuff?

keep good_odds as a fandom journal and make a new journal for personal/political-related stuff?

ditch good_odds and make two new separate journals, one for fandom and one for personal stuff?

Also, which journal (if either) would you like to friend/be friended by/stay friended by?

Potterpocalypse.

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 17:41:18 GMT

Very busy day today! Have (paying) job now, plus other things. Won't be around much. I'll give my full Deathly Hallows review tomorrow, but for now I just want to say that, overall, I liked it, although there are certain deaths that made me the absolute opposite of happy. >:( The Ron/Hermione-ness was actually pretty cute, though! So yay for that. Also, was it just me or was there a whole lot of BADASSERY in this book? I really liked that.

And yeah, I was one of the people who read scans of the book before it was released. Heh heh. But I decided to wait until the book was actually released before sharing my thoughts, so that I can be in sync with my flist. And yeah, I'm going to read the actual, physical copy anyway. I'll be surprised if there's a single person who read the scans who doesn't. Maybe a couple people who hated it, but... no, I bet even they end up buying it.

Ummm... I was going to say something else but I forgot what. :\ Dammit.

[batshit rant]

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 00:13:56 GMT

I'm so fucking tired of furries comparing being a furry to coming out as gay. It's moronic and, frankly, it's INSULTING on multiple levels. And no, this isn't an "Ew furries are weird!" thing, this is a "being made fun of on the Internet is NOTHING AT ALL like real life homophobia, so stop fucking saying it is" thing.*

What annoys me even more is when dumb gay people encourage this bullshit by saying things like, "I'm gay/bi, so I know how you feel!" You colossal fucking fuckheads, that is the wrong answer. You should be saying, "I'm gay/bi, and I think you're a fucking idiot for thinking the two are remotely comparable."

Actually, to be honest, it kind of bugs me when people compare having a sexual fetish like being a furry or being into BDSM or whatever to being gay at all, even if it's not in a ZOMG PERSECUTION way. It seems like the comparison devalues being gay to just sex, which always pisses me off, because really, there's more fucking to it than that. Also, being gay and being a furry/into BDSM/into scat/whatever aren't exactly mutually exclusive. Your sexual fetishes and your sexual orientation are separate fucking things.

[/batshit rant]

*Other real life things to which being made fun of on the Internets has been compared, but actually is not like at all: racism, sexism, Hitler, the war in Iraq, child abuse, theft, rape, murder, genocide of any kind, having a false police report filed against you, sushi, childbirth.

Actually, being made fun of on the Internets isn't even quite like being made fun of in real life. You can't just close the window if people are mocking you in real life.

Writer's Block: By Any Other Name

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 00:46:54 GMT

If you could rename yourself in real life, what would you choose, and why?

I would rename myself Princess Deinonychus Ice Cream Laserbeams, because that would only MAKE ME FREAKIN' AWESOME.

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 04:06:54 GMT

This is pretty neat.

As much as most sea creatures bother me, cephalopods, for whatever reason, generally don't. HURRAH FOR OCTOSQUID.

Ummm...

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 23:49:16 GMT

Everyone keeps asking me for "the real reason" I'm volunteering when I tell them it's just because I want to.

Is it really that strange to volunteer just because? I always thought it was pretty common practice.

ALSO!!!! (This deserves its own post, yessirree!)

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 02:18:10 GMT

GRADES CAME OUT THIS WEEK. I GOT AN A IN MY HISTORY CLASS.

I am SO COOL. (It know it's pretty obvious, but stuff like this goes a long way toward making me feel good about myself and wanting to improve my self-image in general.)

I think maybe this is a self-improvement journal, or else it is becoming one.

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 02:11:19 GMT

I'm tired of selling myself short. I'm tired of thinking of myself as stupid and incapable and weak.

So I won't do it anymore. I am going to develop a system and every time I start thinking of myself as dumb or unworthy or weak or worthless, I will do something that makes me feel smart or strong or capable or whatever I'm having trouble with. :D

Also, I will acknowledge that not being 100% perfect all the time doesn't make me a complete failure. Nobody can be perfect all the time. And that's okay.

Also also also also ALSO!!!! I am going to be an Applied Anthropology major, I decided! It is going to be AWESOME. With a minor in either poli sci, philosophy or international affairs, depending on what's offered at the university I transfer to in... a year and a half.

I think I might double-minor in something like film or art history, too, just to have an excuse to take fun goofball classes.

Day o' pain

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 00:35:42 GMT

Okay, first off: Lifting things is murder on my back. ;_; I don't know if this means I can't lift right or if I'm just out of shape. Probably both.

Also, there are so many big fires in and around my city right now that the smoke has actually turned the sky gray and kind of dark. There are always fires in my state in the summer - part of living in a hot, dry desert - but it's especially bad this year. It's giving me a headache.

Harry Potter 5.

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 02:13:08 GMT

The fifth Harry Potter movie comes out tonight! I won't be going for a while - I'm too tired tonight (long day, + staying up too late and getting up too early), and won't have the money to go to the movies for a long time to come besides - but I'm already gleefully awaiting the batshit insane wankfest that's sure to follow this movie. I know a batshit insane wankfest will follow this movie because a batshit insane wankfest ultimately follows anything even remotely related to Harry Potter or Hogwarts.

My personal prediction for fucknuttery? Ginny is wearing pants in the movie, even though she's never mentioned as wearing them in the book, which proves that everyone involved with the movie is an evil corporate hack who doesn't care about Rowling's vision. It also proves that the people involved don't care about Hermione, because if anyone should wear noncanonical pants it's HER. The reason they don't care about Hermione is because after Emma confessed her true love of Dan to the executives at WB, she ruined any potential for Ron/Hermione in the movies, and the people in charge decided that Emma-Hermione needed to be PUNISHED OH NOES so they gave the trousers originally planned for her to ICKY REDHEADED GINNY. This also proves that Harry/Hermione will happen in the movies even if it doesn't in the book, because Dan and Emma's love will prevail!

Or something.

I think my soul died a long time ago.

There's not really a point to this post.

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 02:57:03 GMT

When I was little - like, 7 or 8 - I always used to switch the time zone setting on the family computer to Mountain Time, because I liked mountains better than the ocean (Pacific), and I remember thinking that you got to use the time zone settings to pick your own time zone. I used to get really irritated when I came back to the computer and found out someone had put us in Pacific Time again.

:D

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 00:58:05 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, audiodrops!!!!

Jumbled thoughts & a personal resolution.

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 01:52:16 GMT

I need to say what's on my mind more often. Not ALL the time, of course. There are some times when the most appropriate mode of behavior is to sit down and STFU. But I hold back a lot of the time in my LJ or in casual political debates with acquaintances or even in my own private journal because I'm afraid of losing people's respect if I'm honest with them, even though nobody's given me any indication that they'd ever lose any respect for me just because I disagreed with them or whatever.

And it's not even that I'm worried about being honest about personal things, I'm just scared to voice my opinions about certain things because I worry that I'll accidentally say something dumb or something, or that my friends will start hating me if I don't agree with them 100% on everything, even though nobody I'm friends with is like that about anything.

Sometimes I worry that if they'll be okay with disagreement, but not for the reasons I actually disagree with them. This is really silly, and it usually results in me saying MORONIC things and wanting to stab myself in my head. ("STAB THEM IN THEIR FACE/EAR/HEAD" is my latest solution to everything, by the way, not any indication of actual desire to harm myself.)

Other times I spend so much time not giving my real opinions on stuff that it just builds and builds and I get more and more frustrated, and then when I do give my opinion, I end up doing it in this really intense, bitchy, aggressive way, and then people get mad at me - not for my opinion itself but for being so aggressive in the way I present and defend it. I think speaking my mind more often might help me from being such a BITCH when I do.

I'm more comfortable speaking my mind around some people than others. I don't know why this is, but it's probably pretty normal.

But anyway. As of... 6:47 Pacific time, July 5, 2007, there will be no more hiding certain opinions from people. And no more being bitchy when I do say things. I'm going to speak up more often, but in a calmer, nicer way, without turning into an asshole about what I'm trying to say. And I'm going to try to put more actual thought into my opinions instead of letting my emotions get carried away with me, as I sometimes do. Also I won't get let myself get so angry and frustrated anymore. People can have different opinions than me about things and that is okay - it doesn't make them bad people. And I can have different opinions from people and that's okay - it doesn't make me a bad person if I don't agree with everything everyone ever says, either.

Oh, yeah, and...

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 05:41:15 GMT

I've decided not to major in biology after all. I think my previous idea - philosophy degree followed by law school - was better. I'm not really a math/sciencey person, as much as I sometimes wish I was.

The dinosaur-love continues forever, though. I would major in just dinosaurs if I could.

Screaming guy.

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 02:00:32 GMT

At the downtown bus center/station/thing today, there were two guys and a girl standing in a little circle a few feet away from me. I only noticed them because one of the guys was screaming at his companions, "IN LAYMAN'S TERMS, THERE IS A METHOD TO THE MADNESS!"

I don't know what madness or what method he was talking about, but it amused me because he seemed so very angry and wound up about it. I guess it might be one of those had-to-be-there things, though.

I can't be bought, but I can be buttered up.

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 19:59:43 GMT

I am so easy.

I just got back a paper for school that I submitted to smarthinking.com. The tutor's going on about how interesting it is and how I have a strong point.

I want to believe that my essays are so bitchin' awesome that even the people I go to for help are impressed with them, but I know it's more likely they flatter everyone like this so that people will actually make the improvements they suggest instead of getting huffy.

D:

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 03:02:04 GMT

WHAT THE HELL, SELF.

YOU HAVE BEEN USING WORDS WRONG ALL DAY.

Quit it! Just.... quit it already!

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 20:32:56 GMT

I'm sure everyone who cares already knows this and everyone who doesn't care... doesn't care, but holy shit, Mike Gravel's ad campaign is a thing of crazy. It's not even just that now infamous "Rock" ad, he's got another spot called "Fire", which basically amounts to - no, which IS - nothing but staring at a campfire for seven minutes.

I have no idea what the point is supposed to be, assuming there is one buried under all that what the SHIT?. He's probably got more, too, or if he doesn't, he's going to. I guess technically it does have people talking about his candidacy, even if what they're saying basically amounts to "WHA BZUH HUH?".

It's a good feeling. If I could, I'd bottle and sell it.

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 16:59:37 GMT

I'll be 20 on July 2.

Sometimes I don't feel 20. Sometimes I still feel 17, sometimes I still feel 12. Sometimes I feel even younger than that. I know I don't always act my age. I know I'm still lazier than I should be, not as focused, not...what someone who's almost 20 should be.

But today, I feel 20. I realized I'm growing up. I feel like I'm growing up. Like I need to take responsibility for my own fucking life, and what's more, for the first time in a long time, I feel like I can do that. Like I have the ability to get things done and act like a fucking adult about it.

I'm more assertive now. Slightly. I still have a ways to go on that front - sometimes I'm too assertive when that level of aggression isn't situationally appropriate. Sometimes I don't have the guts to say what I want when I want to say it, and sometimes I'm too wishy-washy. But I've come a long way from how mousey I used to be. I am learning.

I'm less lazy. Don't get me wrong, I'm still pretty damn lazy, just...less so than I used to be. It's a start, at least. Hopefully, someday soon, I'll be able to truthfully say I'm not lazy at all.

The thing is, I'm one of those people who needs a kick in the ass to get motivated. I guess I just got kicked in the ass enough times in a row that I'm finally acting like a grownup, at least about certain things. Right now I've got that good, slightly manic, bouncing-off-the-walls feeling, the kind you get when you know you can save the world if you try.

And I am going to help save the world. Someday. Somehow. I don't know if that's a very realistic, grownup goal, but I don't know how many people ever actually fully "grow up" anyway. There are worse things not to act my age about.

ETA: ...wow. I just realized it (lol totally not self-aware), but I think I must REALLY REALLY like talking about myself. Eh heh.

:D :D :D

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 18:13:18 GMT

EEEEEEEEEE! I got an A on my History midterm! EEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Randomosity.

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 03:29:09 GMT

Okay, so. Not much updating going on lately, huh? :( I'll have to make up for that somehow. I do have a slightly ridiculous post planned for blogosaurus tomorrow, which is fun.

Anyway, wolfychan was in town Thursday and Friday. It was very nice getting to see her! I got sunburned and it hurts :(, but it was worth it! :) Deer are scary motherfuckers, btw.

I've decided to switch my major from philosophy to biology. This will be the fourth time I've switched majors. My major was theatre originally, which I switched to international affairs, which I switched to philosophy, which I'm now switching again. I am not a model of decisiveness, I know.

Oh! And, as I was tagged by audiodrops, a meme: List seven songs you are into right now, no matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your LiveJournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

1.) I Could Have Danced All Night - My Fair Lady
2.) Mrs. Robinson - Simon & Garfunkel
3.) Go the Distance - Hercules
4.) Always Never the Same - George Strait
5.) Free - The Rolling Stones
6.) Vincent - Don McLean
7.) Papa Don't Preach - Madonna

Tagging:

meliachu
homgsekrit
hangingfire
innocentsmith
tarahime
fox_gloves
wolfychan